4:55am

is when I got out of bed this morning and yesterday morning too...
Yesterday was a crazy day, the pool opened late by 15 minutes and I was late to work...
Today was different, I left the house a few minutes after 5 and ran for 54 minutes. It was drizzling, peaceful and dark. I've been doing a circuit run close to our home. Makes me feel safe running alone "in the middle of the night" as a friend of mine calls it. There is just something I really do love in 5am running. It's the peacefulness, the quietness...everything is so still. It's easy to just get lost in my thoughts and think about a million things at once. I do try to be mindful but usually I just think and think and think. It was drizzling this morning and in the 30's not bad really. I didn't even mind the slush, it was softer than the asphalt.

So, I am going to call Monday if it's open to see about getting an appointment so I can get an x-ray. I feel like my pain is muscular but sometimes the bones hurt too. It's so odd how such a small portion of your body can bother you so much. I am using my roller and icing but could of course do those things a lot more. All's I really, truly want is to feel good and train how I like to train. 6 days a week, consistent work outs. I feel like since last Boston, I've been fighting off this pain and that pain. What's wrong? What do I need to change? I don't remember having these problems training for Hartford.

I love marathoning, I really do love the long distances. It's the same thing as I was saying before. I love getting lost in the run...not actually getting lost but just moving forward and breathing, thinking, conquering every step. I love finishing a run that lasted a few hours and have the thought of yeah, you did that. good job! I don't always feel proud of myself or think that I am very good at things but I do feel proud of myself when I finish a run whether 54 minutes or 2 hours and 54 minutes.

So, here's to good news next week. I am so ready to dive in...although it may be in the deep end of the pool. I am motivated, let's do this!